I woke up with a headache that slowly delved into a migraine. To be honest, I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to record today – so I took my medicine and took a nap. The problem is, when I take that med, I feel worse when I wake up. I hate feeling like shit most of the time, but this is my lot in life. I can either wallow in my own sadness and let this consume me, or put on my big girl panties and keep pushing on. I chose to suck it up and push on because – well, I have a job to do and I’ve been unable to do it this past week. Now, luckily, my commissioners are super chill af, so I could have taken today to recover – but I didn’t.
I’ve been told I need to take it easy, but honestly, that’s not something I really can do. Hell, even the two cons I attend yearly, which SHOULD be for fun and relaxing? I do AV for. I find it so hard to sit still and just be. I don’t know why that is, other than my body always has this nagging voice in the back of my head that says I need to be doing something at any given moment. I made a poll on Twitter and everyone’s been so, so nice about it, saying it’s okay to share medical stuff and updates – but I think I’ll just be posting extensive things here on my blog. After all, those that care enough about it can seek it out – and those that wish to avoid it, can just not come here.
That brings me to my next point: Twitter. You know, I didn’t think I’d have much of a following there. After all, I was pretty much old news after taking a 3 year hiatus after my ex husband pretty much ruined everything fandom for me. I didn’t think people wanted to hear my voice anymore, but even on the other furry gallery I post my voice work on, I’m at 457 followers, and on Twitter it’s 344 – so that’s over 800 people combined who follow me! Holy crap!
I actually never sat down and thought about it.
Speaking of! I’ve been cast as Rin for the game Disastrous Events! This is the first non-NSFW thing I’ve been in. I know, it feels kinda weird for me too. But! I’m always looking to expand my repertoire of voices! Do I want to be popular or famous? Well, that would be kinda nice, but to be honest, I’d probably be so stressed out from all the drama. Then again, I tend to keep my nose clean and ignore people who try to ruffle my feathers – or, laugh with them, even when they’re laughing AT me. I tend to not take randoms comments on the internet seriously at all, because everyone is brave behind a computer screen. I know some people who bring others down do it because they have a deep pain within that they need to express, and tearing others apart is the only thing that placates it – for a while. But, no matter how much they do it, it consumes them, like a fire – every reply evokes an arousal (sexually and other) and they become hooked on replying back.
Unless you’re paying me, I won’t buy into it. You want me to reply to your insults? I’ll invoice you. Otherwise, piss up a rope. :^)
Well, that’s all for now, this has already run too long. Oh! I’m going to be re-working the site over the next few days. Let me know what y’all think!